When will things ever become consistent again?
For years now I have been trying to encourage him to get back to school and start working towards a career, but he wasn’t ready. He said he has decided to go back to school, when I heard these words I could have jumped up and down with happiness. Little did I know that he had plans that changed everything for us. Yes, he is serious about going back to school in the fall of 2014 which I am thrilled about, the part I am not thrilled about is the part where the school is 10 hours across the island and he will be gone for 10 months. Don’t get me wrong I am happy that he has found his path and has chosen to pursue this, I will support him 5000%, but I cannot ignore the changes that this choice brings forward.
I know he needs to go do this, and I want him to go do this for himself but he will be gone for 10 months. That is what close to 240 days apart. I am not doubting that we will not be able to make it work but in my mind all I can think about is..240 days without a kiss or hug, nights I will have to sleep alone. 240 days is a long time. Plus this means I will have to find a roommate during the time he is gone, if I can even find one. I am not sure that I would even be able to find a roommate because people do not generally want to move in for a 9 - 10 month time span. If i cannot find a roommate then we would have to let our apartment go, I cannot afford the cost of everything on my own, it is not an option.
I know that these are things that can be worked out, but I get the feeling in my gut that there are going to be a number of changes coming up in our life for next fall. I will do whatever it takes to ensure that he goes and does this because I know it is what he really wants and while it mat suck for a little while in the long run it is going to help us with our future and life together.
feeling mixed emotions and slightly confused..